I’m not someone you can toy with. I have feelings that matter. You make me feel like I have to be perfect. Like I have to be number one. And if I’m not number one then I’ll be replaced by someone who fills all of your requirements. I want to be the best. I want you to be able to look at me and say fuck everyone else. I NEED to be the best. It’s like a fight that I feel like I won’t ever win. Just tell me the truth, goddamnit. Stop messing with my head by letting me create a fantasy when it’ll never be a reality.